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u all definitely know how hurts she is. but u all don't know how hurt i'm cz i've hurt her. do u think i did it happily? BIG NO!!!!!!!! everyday i see she stares at me with hateful gaze but dont u know that im hurt too to see it?? cz from the start u all have judged me as a backstabber, yep that's true. but backstabber isnt always happy as u think. im tormented in this situation, its awry. i'm tired of get down everyday, i'm bored to cry. but i dunno what should i do to get out from this problem. I've already stab my best friend's back. yea that all is the risk of a backstabber. hope there will come the 'one' who could understand my situation and give me the way to get out from this situationT_____T

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Hey. today is January 12th 2011 and........it's should be my Anniversary. oopss sorry failed anniversary I mean;p
My friends at school congratulated me for the 12months (failed anniversary), thankyouuuu!! Thanks for making me not love you anymore. Thanks for the pain that you gave to me, because it made me learn how to be stronger, thanks for tears that you made because it made me feel how lost one person I loved before the other leave me. Anyway, I still remember "the anniversary sayings" that you gave one year ago, thats a beautiful words yea xD

I will survive

First I was afraid
I was petrified
Kept thinking I could never live
without you by my side
But I spent so many nights
thinking how you did me wrong
I grew strong
I learned how to carry on
and so you're back
from outer space
I just walked in to find you here
with that sad look upon your face
I should have changed my stupid lock
I should have made you leave your key
If I had known for just one second
you'd be back to bother me

Go on now go walk out the door
just turn around now
'cause you're not welcome anymore
weren't you the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye
you think I'd crumble
you think I'd lay down and die
Oh no, not I
I will survive
as long as i know how to love
I know I will stay alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
and I'll survive
I will survive

It took all the strength I had
not to fall apart
kept trying hard to mend
the pieces of my broken heart
and I spent oh so many nights
just feeling sorry for myself
I used to cry
Now I hold my head up high
and you see me
somebody new
I'm not that chained up little person
still in love with you
and so you felt like dropping in
and just expect me to be free
now I'm saving all my loving
for someone who's loving me